On the Verge

For most of my life I have prided myself on being in control of my emotions. Sometimes I would credit that to my interest in acting and my logical nature. Whenever I felt something I was always very aware of it and I would analyze it. Why was I feeling this? Was the feeling really…

Belief

For most of my life I have considered myself an acquired taste; meaning that someone would have to learn to love me or be taught to be attracted to me. There are a multitude of influences that could be credited for the inception of this absurd idea, but somewhere down the road of my life…

Yeah, I Know

Everyone has their body-image struggles. Thanks to whatever fashion demon decided that women needed to look like adolescent boys, no woman thinks she’s thin enough. I once worked at a Ballet Summer Intensive where I was surrounded by stunning young women who were strong and beautiful. Most of them were very thin, but all of them…

It Won’t Fix It

Tonight all I want is cheese. We have shredded and sliced cheddar in the house, but nothing to put it on except a head of cauliflower (which would be a waste of cheese). So I am having a fit of rage, while simultaneously plotting to walk to McDonalds and eat a Big Mac, a large fry,…

Dolla, Dolla Bills

Whenever someone asks me how old I am my first instinct is to say that I am 24. Of course I quickly realize that that is not true, I’m 28. And yet…I don’t feel 28. I feel 24. I feel like I have been out of college a few years (certainly not 6! What?! How?!)…

Screw Beautiful

I read once that when a woman weighs herself, she should subtract the weight of her boobs and her brain, because they should never count against her. Although I do not think that any of the pounds on the scale should, “count against us,” I understand and moderately appreciate the notion. I believe that a…

Workout Clothes

Rachell and I are closing in on the second week of our new exercise regimen. I feel proud of us so far, but I also find myself wondering, “When will this ever get easier?!” This is a pretty funny thought when you consider that as work out routines go ours is extremely manageable.   First…

“Hanger” Management

It’s official. I have “hanger” issues. “Hanger” is the condition where your blood sugar crashes and you turn into a despicable creature hell-bent on ruining everyone’s life until they feed you. It derives from the combination of “hunger” and “anger” = “hanger.” In the last two weeks I have gone from a generally nice person to a…

Love Interest

I am an aspiring actor. There is a lot more aspiring than acting involved at this point, but I am working on it. There is a lot that is involved in trying to “make it” as an actor and, honestly, a lot of it is unpleasant. There is a huge amount of competition as well…

#Goals?

Growing up, one of the things my dad always said to me was to write down my goals. The physical act of writing them down was supposed to help them come to fruition in your life by solidifying them into something tangible. I followed this advice several times, from writing down my New Years’ Resolutions…

It Takes Two

After two blissful and calorie filled weeks at my parents’ house, I moved back into my apartment with Ashley. Now it is time to get serious about this weight-loss thing. So, starting Sunday, Ash and I made menus and created workout schedules. And then we took a nap. It was splendid. Yesterday was the first…