Valentine’s Day Survival Kit [Take Two]

I love Valentine’s Day. This might seem odd, chronically single as I am, but I do. I love it. I love love. I love celebrating love and I think that it’s ridiculous that Valentine’s Day belongs to couples. There are many kinds of love. I celebrate them all and in that vein I give you…

This is Me

You know those paintings where you see it one way, and then suddenly it’s different and you can’t see it the first way again? First you see the duck and then you can’t unsee the rabbit? Well, recently I had an I-can’t-unsee-this moment. I see it everywhere and it’s haunting me:  TV shows make jokes…

Out of My League

My best friend Mikael hates the phrase “deserve her/him.” For example I will say, “He simply doesn’t deserve her.” Mikael will look at me, with the same look he has given me for eleven years (3% pity, 80% grace, and 17% silent lecture) and  remind me that people are not awards to be earned. He…

Catching Up

In January, I went back to school to get a teaching credential in English. I won’t bore you with the details, but it was hard. I took on too much, I got my heart a little broken, and I gained a lot of weight. In the TV show Girls there’s a sobbing exchange that goes… Hannah: We…

Action!

This week has been a low one. As I mentioned yesterday, I have chosen to eat my feelings (and a little bit more). So, I’m taking action. I am switching directions. I’m switching plans. Weight Watchers has several different versions of its plans. I am presently on “Smart Points,” which puts me on a daily…

Food Coma

I have a few confessions to make, confessions of which I am not proud. Sometimes with this blog I feel like a fraud. Although I have been as vulnerable as possible, there have been things that I have hidden, or times I’ve only posted the positives, but it’s time to come clean. I still binge….

Feeling Foolish

“People do not wish to appear foolish; to avoid the appearance of foolishness, they are willing to remain actually fools.” – Alice Walker It has been quite a year. There have been many times that I have felt foolish writing this blog. I have felt too vulnerable. I have felt too vain.  But I have…

Run for Your Life

Pounding. The cold concrete. Heart thumping.Feet moving fast. No air left to scream. The sweat hides tears. Pound it. Lift it. One foot in front of the other. Legs turn red with cold. Heart racing — reminding you it still works. I love running. I used to run away from home — in college. I…

No One Wants Me

There are a lot of lies we tell ourselves. Some of them are less damaging than others like, “they won’t kill off Tyrion, he’s the best character.” But others can be catastrophic. This week’s Weight Watcher’s meeting was about body confidence. It was about learning to love ourselves. A month ago, I would have marched into that room…

Valentine’s Survival Kit

I love Valentine’s Day. I have always loved it, since my doily covered shoe box was filled with the half-heartedly signed names of my classmates. I think that it is a beautiful day to celebrate love — of all forms. I think it is crazy that couples have hijacked this holiday for themselves and I…

Back to School

This month, I started school — again. I am going to get my single-subject teaching credential in English (and maybe social studies if I get up the motivation to take another giant, five-hour, standardized test). Usually I love school (at least since math was no longer a part of the equation), but this time around the…

Now What?

Since our Ashley left us last week, I thought I’d take a moment to let you know what’s next. Here’s what I’m planning to do in this next chapter of Embraceable. Here is my new commitment to Embraceable, to you, and to myself. First: I am continuing on with Weight Watchers. I’ve learned a lot from…